(Sorry, I’m rambling a bit at here.)
I went to a farmers market, Trader Joe’s, a tarot spell class, and a new moon ritual yesterday. I spent about $11 at the farmers market, $20 at Trader Joe’s, $10 for the class, $10 for a bee pendant, and $4 for a jar of “new job” salt. (I’m keeping track of my spending because I have to make my money last until I get a new job.)
The class was obviously based on a book I recently bought at a used book store, so while it was good, it wasn’t much new information for me. I didn’t mind paying for it though, because the teacher was the same one who taught a great class on hoodoo potions the week before, including a bunch of free samples. Even though I didn’t pay for that class, I’ve since bought items from her product line.
Lately I’ve been doing more magically than mundanely to get a new job. This is of course problematic, because magic can’t work if it doesn’t have a path to work through. Months back I dreamt of a small pyramid that said “As above, so below.” The rest of that saying is “As within, so without.” The full moon and new moon rituals I went to, as well as my spell work and magical baths are part of me working on my “within” blocks to getting a new job. Now I need to work on the “without” stuff. The new moon is a good time for this.
I said something in the ritual that worried me, then I worried if it’s right to publicly discuss stuff that happens in ritual. When I was involved in another magical group, our rituals were private, so I’m used to the idea of not discussing what happens in ritual. This was a public ritual though, so maybe it’s ok.
At the end, some of us said things we wanted to manifest in the world. One person asked for the impeachment of Donald Trump. I said. “No, Peace,…and Harmony.” I worried over saying this, because I think it’s wrong to say “No” to what someone else says in a ritual. I also thought it was wrong to say something that was so specifically political at a public ritual, in which we don’t know everyone’s political leanings. I have a bad habit of responding to questions or otherwise commenting when the person wasn’t speaking to me. Maybe this is because I think I know so much – a common Virgo tendency, but not one that’s very endearing to people. I think my intention was good, but I shouldn’t have said “No”.
This comment and my response to it made me think of something. Witches all over the US have been doing spell work to prevent Trump from being elected, then to get him out of office. This didn’t work at first, because he was elected, but maybe it’s helping to get him out now? His administration seems to be imploding while he behaves like a spoiled toddler having temper tantrums. I don’t think he’s completely stupid, but he’s been behaving very stupidly. I personally despise him and admit to quite a bit of schadenfreude when I see his administration imploding.
Anyway, at the ritual I was more concerned with the stress and anxiety people have been feeling. In a post on a witchy Facebook book group, someone asked if people were having more nightmares and feeling off lately. People said they are. I think this is because of all the tension and violence in the world and in the news. We all feel it, even if we’re not watching the news constantly. It invades our subconscious and our dreams. I asked in the ritual for this pervasive tension to be lifted, for the good of everyone. Then I wondered if it might serve a purpose too?
There are two things I often ask for in my own life: Security and Feeling Secure. Even though it might seem counter-intuitive, these are separate things. Being safe and secure means one won’t be physically hurt, but even when one is safe, one might not feel safe. One might be in a constant state of anxiety, which makes it very hard to get things done. On the other hand, one might feel perfectly safe, when they really aren’t, which means they might not act to protect themselves. Either of these states is bad. The ideal is to both be safe and feel safe. My usual problem is that when I feel anxious, it’s hard for me to get things done, so I need to feel safe. Sometimes though, I also feel too secure when I need to be working on protecting myself.
Maybe the people of this world also need to feel unsafe, when we are unsafe? Maybe we need to not feel protected and complacent? Maybe we need to worry about rising oceans, melting permafrost, raging wildfires, warfare in distant lands, other people staving and dying, other people losing their homes and homelands, other people hurting, other people feeling scared, other people feeling threatened and angry. Each of us might be more or less safe and secure in our homes and lives, but we’re all connected to these other people too, and what they feel and experience does affect us.
If one is psychically sensitive, massive anxiety in other people will affect them. Empaths feel this the most acutely, but we all feel it at some level subconsciously. If you watch or read the news and have even a normal level of empathy, you’ll feel it and be affected by it. Even if you don’t feel it as anxiety or sadness, you’ll be affected indirectly by the actions of these other people.
People displaced by famine and war have to go somewhere. Maybe you won’t have thousands of displaced immigrants moving into your town, but what about the homeless people in your parks and alleys, under your bridges and on your sidewalks? You might not care about polar bears drowning, but rising sea levels will affect most of us eventually. Maybe all you’ll notice personally is the price of food going up in your supermarket, but world events eventually trickle down to affecting all of us now, because we’re economically and socially connected, as well as being metaphysically connected.
People who are scared, hurt and angry tend to do things that can hurt other people. This was why I asked for Peace and Harmony in this world, but I don’t want it to be the kind of Peace that keeps us from noticing that something is wrong and needs to be fixed. If your neighbor’s house is on fire, you need to help put it out, not sit in Zen-like peacefulness inside your own house.
For this new moon I want to manifest safety, security and prosperity for myself.
I also hope for better safety, cooperation, and harmony for our world.